I have so many passions, so many deep feelings for the people of this world and for the environment. At the same time, I have so much going on in my own life. I have to get myself on a more straight road, before I can help others. I can't be much help to people when I don't know if I will be able to get out of bed from one day to another. And this frustrates me.
Right now this blog seems to be the only connection I have with the world. The only way to get the word out about what I see as important, what I see as needing to be done. Yet sometimes I don't think that people are listening. I began this blog because I felt I had something to say. This is how my first blog post reads:
Here I am, starting yet another blog. It's not because I'm trying to be cool or popular, but because I really have things to say. I do some writing over on Myspace, but it's really not cutting it for me. I spend too much time learning about people's private lives and not saying what I have to say, which is sometimes important. Also I wasn't spending enough time outside...I wasn't enjoy nature, God's creation. Now I am trying to spend much less time on the computer and much more time among the trees.
I am here to post my opinions and tell the world what I have to say. Please comment if you have something to add to the discussion, even if it's disagree with what I have to say. Nothing will never get resolved if there is no dialogue.
Now as I'm stuck with the directions of my life, I am also stuck with the directions of this blog. I didn't think it was possible but over the last two years, I have found more things that I need to tell people about. I began with the church, with spirituality, religion, and the environment. I added bits in pieces of my daily life, hoping to show my beliefs in how I live. Then came the GREAT PNEUMONIA INCIDENT, this kept me from blogging for several months, due to the fact that I could barely breath, or get out of bed.
Then with the diagnosis of many chronic illnesses, I turned the attention to this blog to advocating for awareness and understanding. I saw this as an important aspect of my life, but it did not have much of a place in a blog about Christianity and the Environment. Also, with my recent crisis, I've become more involved in mental health awareness, and have been interested in keeping everyone I care about informed of my daily struggles. Which this blog has also been ideal in serving in that purpose.
So here I am, expanding my horizons in the blogging world. But I'm stuck, feeling like Dorothy on the Yellow Brick Road, and the Scarecrow is telling me which way to go. Do I keep just one blog, and hope that the range of things I write about keep people interested enough to come back. Or do I begin again with another blog separating the original Living in the MidWest about my life, Christianity, and the Environment, starting a new blog about chronic physical and mental illness, and my struggle with those. Would I be able to keep up, would people read both, or would I just be stuck with two blogs, and no readers?
I've been going over this for some time now. In reality I am fulfilling what my initial intention of this blog was, writing because I felt I had something important to say. The scope of those important things have just been broadened since September of 2006.
Please advise on this subject, because I've come to a cross roads and the scarecrow is not cutting it.