Lately I've been spending way too much time feeling sorry for myself. That is going to stop today. I'm not saying that I won't have bad days... I'm just going to try and have less. A beautiful day was ruined yesterday, because I let myself be upset. I didn't start the day as planned, waking up several times in the middle of the night, then sleeping through the alarm to head to church. Missing church made me miss the day. The only way I can take this illness is one hour at a time, but I've been letting what happens in previous hours effect the present hour. I'm going to try to make that happen less.
I haven't been writing a heck of a lot about the environment, social justice, or Christianity lately. This is mostly because I haven't had any particularly positive things to say. I'm going to try to write one post a week that has some substance on a topic that I'm passionate about.
I haven't been walking as much as I would like or need to because I've been in a lot of pain or extremely tired. I'm going to try and walk 3 days a week no matter how bad I feel.
I haven't been asking for help. And many days I seriously need it. Instead of whining, I'm going to try to ask for help from more people.
I complain because no one understand what I'm going through or how I feel, but I haven't tried to explain it in ways that they can understand. I'm going to try to start explaining my illness instead of just complaining about something I can't change.
Ryan and I have been doing this by ourselves for way too long, and I know he's getting tired. I'm going to try and assemble a team of people to help me accomplish more and feel the best I can.
There has to be more, but I think this is good for today. Notice I say I'm going to TRY to do each of these things. I know there are going to be times that I fail miserably. But I am going to make the best effort possible to make those times few and far between.
PS. I found a new favorite website that is being all inspirational and stuff: www.chronicbabe.com
